It's true, I need to be more like that.

There have been many people who have loudly proclaimed that if they had to do it all over again, they wouldn't change a thing. No matter how many mistakes they made, no matter how many regrets they had, they firmly believe they would do it all over again. Not you, Moonchild. Not right now, at least. You may be having a lot of doubts now about the paths you have chosen that have brought you to where you are today. There is a lot you would change. You don't have that choice of course, so you need to recognize that you are wiser and kinder for what you've been through, and you are exactly where you're supposed to be.