What I'd say to you if I called.

I know, its late, and you're probably tired.

But tonight I tried a beer I think you might like.

We don't have to be friends, and you don't even have to respond. But I thought you should know I'm thinking about you.

I'm scared that if I delete your words, I delete you.

Eyedea and abilities.

Twisted,
living off eachother's sickness, like parasites.

this

is

paradise.

The unfortunate truth.

"Every thought you have seeps into your blood."

new national.

i keep feeling smaller and smaller.

lie.

at least i don't lie anymore.

last night i had a dream you were alive all along

my jaw to the floor, i ran around the table to hug your smiling face.

lay in that bed,
that chance you took,
the choice you made.

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trouble.

she's trouble.

Mistakes.

"You can never make the same mistake twice. Because the second time you make it, it's not a mistake, it's a choice."

there are reasons we dream.

wasted time.

it's all just waiting

wasted time.

wanting what we can't have - wastes time.

inside

you're just like me.


outside

you're you.

Maybe there's a reason I can't find another you.

Muddy water.

Muddy water is best cleared by leaving it alone.

- Alan Wilson Watts.

You still make me laugh like I'm a little girl again.

only feel.

i picture lives i haven't lived

and paths i chose not to take.


then i see you.



you right wrongs in my head
you hold my heart with one look.

and i can't picture anything-

only feel.