Maui so far.

Old friends and old feelings.

I had a dream about you last night, then woke up to this:

An old memory has come back to haunt you. Thoughts of a past event keep flowing through your mind, and something about it holds feelings of regret for you, Moonchild. This may be impacting you now because you are entering a situation that is substantially the same - or so it seems. But that was then and this is now. You have evolved. You have learned. You have developed stronger resources. And you are certainly wiser. Use that past memory to embrace what is unfolding for you in the here and now. You are ready for it this time - and it will be wonderful.

At the end of this dance, you don't want to regret me.

I needed to hear this.

You made a big change in your life not long ago, Moonchild, and it was a change for the better. You may still be struggling with it, though - even though it is a positive step in the right direction. Your old way was comfortable because you were so used to it, even though it wasn't good for you. Take heart in knowing that you are doing something that's positive, and that as time goes on things will get better and better because you were strong enough to try a new and better way.

the love.

you've got the love.

i don't even notice the weight on my shoulders anymore.

lost.

"What do you really think of me?"

"I think you're lost."

ouch.

open.

we have everything.

re-open your eyes.

okay universe.

i get it.


you can stop sending signs now.

"If you have chemistry, you only need one more thing - timing."

i'm waiting.

you're my favorite dream
my favorite beginning
middle
and end


so come back

xx.

we used to be closer than this

is it something you miss?

...

fan.

i fantasize about you

flaws.

love my flaw(s).

study brain.

guy friend.

if i was your guy friend, this is what i'd say to you:

"don't let her slip away. show her how much you love her.
be considerate.
show her you've changed.

you know you'll regret it if you don't do everything you can to get her back.

in fact, i bet that's what she's waiting for."

forgiveness.

i've given up the hope that the past could have been different.

i forgive you.

Seriously though.

i'm done letting myself want you.

replaced.

you can't be replaced.

mcginley.

convince.

who are you trying to convince? 

me or you?

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what i don't deserve.

i'm swimming in the smoke of the bridges i have burned.

so don't apologize,

i'm losing what i don't deserve.

and in the end, we were made to be apart

in separate chambers of the human heart.

line.

i draw the line 

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wherever you stand.

The right person.

"When you meet the right person, you know it. you can't stop thinking about them. They're your best friend, and your soul mate. You can't wait to spend the rest of your life with them. No one and nothing else can compare."

the real you.

today, i remembered how it felt 

to realize

you never existed.

jealousy looks ugly

especially on you.