if you're the one for me,

no matter what i foresee,

then you will be.

--i catch colds 

and eyes 

but no breaks--

gathering skeletons.

i kept coming back to that spot-

that moment.

and for the longest time i wanted to change it.

only now am i realizing i did my best

and i don't regret a goddamn thing.

--

this spoke to me.

what's meant to be,

will.

this is the last time.

"i won't be vacant anymore,
i won't be waiting anymore."

good karma is on my side,
and even yours-

just not ours.

call it off.

"maybe i would have been something you'd be good at
maybe you would have been something i'd be good at


but now we'll never know."

i'll come to you.

change

is not always

for the best.

--

early mornings with best friends and former lovers.

make a guest room for me.

i'll wake up early and make eggs.

i'll smile when you smile.

you'll remember why you used to love me,
and surrender one last time.

lost art.

you're a lost art

a shifted memory

and the tip of my tongue.

oh what i wouldn't do.

"while he hated you, i cared about you."

you're right.

our tears are salty, not sweet.

we weep,

not for what was

but what could have been.

No matter hows strong i can be,

september 17th always wins.

you're an asshole.


"lol"

Trials of lipstick and lace

How many more times do I have to wrap my body in glitter before you notice?

Eerie.

You do not like risk. Some signs are fine with taking a chance, but you like things to remain secure and predictable. When you venture out of your shell, Moonchild, you like to know what you can expect. But avoiding risk can be risky. Never taking a chance means you may miss opportunities and adventures that might not be considered "safe." You would love to have security in every area of our life - financial, emotional, relationship, and so on. But sometimes a risk is necessary to generate the kind of security you crave. Consider a risk this week - the potential gain may be worth it.

COME

WHAT

MAY

.

cemented.

i remember seeing you across the room.

you were smiling. 

my thoughts were fleeting but my heart stood still

like a rock.

(cemented)

tragic

how the moments you want to last, never do

and the ones you want to escape are carried with you forever.

---

change for the worse.

you're not the same person.

Regrets.

Our biggest regrets are not for the things what we did,
But for what we didn't do.

months.

i'd rather be with you for three months

than no months.

afterski.

i like foreign music.

"always wear cute pyjamas. you never know who you'll meet in your dreams."

:)

i found a new song i know you'd like.

Beginnings.

"New beginnings are 

often disguised as 

painful endings..."

- Lao Tzu.

simple.

i want to wash away my mistakes with soap and steel wool.

i want to light up your living room with my bright eyes.

i want to show you the laundry doesn't have to be done alone.

i want you know how simple it is

and always has been.

i already do.

one september morning.

sometimes

we re-live moments.

and what we don't realize is

the reason we re-live that part of our past

is because it's meant to be apart of our future.

---

back to school.

when i met you.

sun. it's in your name.

The rest will make sense.

Where do you turn when there's no where else to go?

You stay still. You breathe. You feel the earth's pulse. You feel energy coursing through your veins. You feel one with the elements, with your memories, your thoughts, your feelings, your soul. You don't need to go anywhere. Be present - and the rest will make sense.

Secret.

We were a secret.

Kissed in shadows,

Held hands behind closed doors,

Deleted our thoughts as soon as we had them.

We morphed together,

Melded. Grew.

With a limit.

I'm sorry for being that limit.