oblivion.

we release ourselves into oblivion

only to realize

we were already there.

twists&turns.

all the twists and turns are leading me to you

i can feel it.

my dad makes me laugh.

"I think I have a sinus/chest infection. What is the doctor going to give me?"

"Probably amoxicillin, it's first line."

"Is that the good stuff?"

"Yes, Dad. Haha"

"Okay, but will it effect my birth control pills?"

Fleur.

I hope you like them.

what i've learned.

there will be pain.

there will be sorrow.


but there will be hope

passion and love.



accept it



and don't let yourself be anyone's victim.


life is what we do with it, not what it does to us.

little brothers.

"you're driven, you're beautiful, you're happy. you're everything anyone could ever want. you're perfect - and i have yet to see you get the love you deserve."

little brothers know more than we think.

Letting go.

I have a hard time hanging on.

And once I do,

I have an even harder time letting go.

best thing i've seen all day.

you still make me nervous.

you're everything i want

and more

spring.

clumsy colours

late nights

bitter mornings

we feel fragile.

waiting

wanting

lusting

whispers

the mistakes we made

melt away.

definitely (maybe) i should wait.

be my best friend again.

sip.

sip

lick

crash

cut.

link.

let's link arms, hands and fingers

but don't you dare to go near my heart.

XXII.

let's misbehave.

i am obedient. 

who i am.

I WANT TO SHOW YOU
WHO I AM.

i hope you haven't forgotten.

youyouyou.

when i drive

i think of you.

you you you.

lately.

 sex on the brain.

Friends.

So grateful for good ones. <3

honesty.

because those who matter don't mind.

kindness.

kill with kindness.

even when it hurts

even when it kills you

be kind.

that way, when you finally turn your back to walk away

there are no regrets.

thank you.

above and beyond.

to be with you

is easy

i know you're good for me

.

you've made your point.

i just hope your point 

keeps you warm at night.

---

You soothe me.

I didn't hang up. I just listened to you sleep.

A Mohawk warrior, Waneek.

Tonight I had the honor of meeting and listening to an amazing woman speak. A true inspiration to women and aboriginal people everywhere.

Her and her mother will always be an inspiration to me.

can'tstopwon'tstop.

memories.

i live with memories every day.

they are a part of who i am,

because i let them be. 

even the ones that hurt to feel, and the songs i don't want to hear, 

i feel, and i listen.

i let myself love and hate through memories.

i let them be apart of me, 

because moving on is remembering what moved you.

---

don't let me go.

i've come this far 

and lived this long

without you

but please don't let me go any further.

signs.

you are the sign i don't want to see.

legs.

instead of thanking you, i thanked my legs.

for getting me where i need to be. for letting me stand tall.

you always make me feel better, 

even though you're not here.

It's true, I need to be more like that.

There have been many people who have loudly proclaimed that if they had to do it all over again, they wouldn't change a thing. No matter how many mistakes they made, no matter how many regrets they had, they firmly believe they would do it all over again. Not you, Moonchild. Not right now, at least. You may be having a lot of doubts now about the paths you have chosen that have brought you to where you are today. There is a lot you would change. You don't have that choice of course, so you need to recognize that you are wiser and kinder for what you've been through, and you are exactly where you're supposed to be.

when you stop searching, it'll find you.

happy photos

for a happy heart.

i need to stop feeling sorry for myself.

there is beauty all around
and i'm lucky.

I don't blame myself.

I did my best.

moving on.

there will always be a time to move on,

it's just a matter of allowing yourself.

fuzz.

when the future feels fuzzy

when what you once knew is no longer true

focus on what you feel.

focus on what's real.

vocab.

your name 

no longer exists in my vocabulary.

--

the healing.

i saw you in a dream last night

i held you close til the morning light

woke up before i even got to say good-bye

-tim chaisson.

make up your mind.

atmosphere.

life

love

stress

setbacks

-atmosphere

(if only they knew what i've done)