i'll only whisper.

Du bist sehr schön.

not listening.

when you speak, i'm not listening.
the only voice i hear is the one in my head.
my heart left my head months ago.

you think i care-

-but i just don't anymore.

dear.

By the way, I'm wearing the smile you gave me.

reading week.

Booked: Charlottetown, PEI. Could not be more excited.

let's.

let's get lost,
let's lose touch,
let's fall in love,
but not too much.

out of here.

Booking a trip for reading week today!
No telling where just yet!

Ich fühle mich gut heute.

Ich vermisse dich.

drive.

Every time I'm in your neighbourhood, I drive by your house. Is that creepy?

i feel better.

can mine look like this?

Home is the place where it feels right to walk around without shoes.

lost.

Not all who wander are lost.

desire.

You cannot stop the flood of desire as it moves through the world.
- Elizabeth Gilbert.

almost.

I almost forgot what it was like to cover my mouth, blush, and giggle.
Thanks for reminding me.

i had fun on saturday, though.

yar.

irritant.

I am irritable.
teething. tired. pmsing. cold. hungry.
maybe just leave me alone for a day.

blame game.

It helps to blame. Right? Because if someone is responsible for our pain, we can feel better about it. (or is it worse?)
But what if no one is to blame?
Then what?
What if this is just the way things are supposed to be? No one is at fault, no one is to blame. But then who is responsible for the pain? How can we mend the pain if no one is to blame?

By accepting that the past couldn't have been any different.

how come!

how come no one likes me!

your woman.

I could never be your woman.

dreams/nightmares

had two last night:
1. running into my mom at a coffee shop and crying my eyes out.
2. running into you and slapping you across the face. you're such a fuck.

funny guys.

look at these funny guys!

one night.

Come feel my new sheets,
I only want you for one night.

take it.

Ah the high road...

swede.

Love me when I least deserve it,
Because that's when I really need it.
- Swedish proverb.

may i feel said he.

may i feel said he
(i'll squeal said she
just once said he)
it's fun said she

(may i touch said he
how much said she
a lot said he)
why not said she

(let's go said he
not too far said she
what's too far said he
where you are said she)

may i stay said he
which way said she
like this said he
if you kiss said she

may i move said he
is it love said she)
if you're willing said he
(but you're killing said she

but it's life said he
but your wife said she
now said he)
ow said she

(tiptop said he
don't stop said she
oh no said he)
go slow said she

(cccome?said he
ummm said she)
you're divine!said he
(you are Mine said she)

-e.e. cummings.

mine.

All the knowledge I possess everyone else can acquire, but my heart is all my own.
- Goethe

who knows.

Am I stupid for still wanting to know what it would be like?
Ah, whatever, I'll get over it. Right?

what i've learned the hard way.

Don't make decisions when you're angry.
Don't make promises when you're happy.

right, though?

i wish it weren't true.

wishful thinking.

When two people are really happy with one another, one can generally assume they are mistaken.
- Goethe

ha.

out.

out of sight, out of mind.

mhm.

forget.

You're yesterday's promise, and tomorrow's regret.
Or it's the other way around; I always forget.