Turning away and not looking back.

tip-toe.

i wonder if you're awake right now
i wonder what's tip-toeing inside your mind.

i keep you next to me by remembering your jaw line

your teeth
your eyes
your hair
your hands
and your perfect
little

nose.

i hear your voice

in music

and the rain.

if i can't have you,

i'll keep everything you ever gave me.

i don't care how beautiful it is, how nice it smells,
or how much it makes smile -

i don't want to go any further down a dead-end road.

we're just passing through.

--

This freaks me out.

You aren't a very good liar, Moonchild. Then again, you don't get much practice. You are honest to a fault. Your integrity is not open to compromise. But now and then everyone lies. Sometimes, with the best of intentions, we lie to make others feel good, or we lie so that we don't hurt their feelings. We sometimes lie to protect ourselves too. You may be trying to tell a "little white lie" to someone now for a positive purpose. But you are someone who wears your heart on your sleeve. Just be straightforward and soften the blow with your usual compassion and sensitivity.

"she would punch him in the throat for this."

yep.

have a good idea for a book.

---

you looked good in that banff sweater.

meant to be.

Q: how many more signs do we need?

A: 0.

you learn to live without.

alone.

i can't be feeling this, alone.

surely you're out there

loving me through the windows of your car.

replaying each moment as if it were our last.

i hope the universe isn't making me go through this, alone.

fire.

i know you'd be the one to carry me out of a fire.

(even if i was the one who started it).

strange how hard it rains now.

shift.

at 3 am last night, i couldn't sleep. i had to write this down:

when i saw you for the first time, my universe shifted. 

it took me a long time to realize that when it shifted, 

it shifted into place.

saudade.

palms.

i have to know

if 

you are who my heart says you are.

---

this time, i won't take you for granted.

i'm 

d

y

i

n

g

to show you

that i deserve another chance.

i had a dream you two were smiling.

i hope that's what you're doing right now.

i still don't know why i gave you a second chance.


but i do know that you needed love.


and even after everything, you deserved it.

i've laid my love on the table

in front of you


take it.

young and beautiful.

I know you will still love me when I'm no longer young and beautiful.

---

I saw your hair line today.

And those god-awful black wheels.

I wish my heart didn't stop.

i haven't thrown in the towel.

dance, dance

smoke

laugh, touch, smile

make promises

give up on me.


(i know you will)

under covers.

damn your eyes

for taking my breath away

for making me wanna stay

for getting my hopes up high

making me fall in love again

damn your eyes.

- just a little song you showed me under the covers.

That's true love.

I only want you to be happy.

With or without me.