alone.

i can't be feeling this, alone.

surely you're out there

loving me through the windows of your car.

replaying each moment as if it were our last.

i hope the universe isn't making me go through this, alone.

fire.

i know you'd be the one to carry me out of a fire.

(even if i was the one who started it).

strange how hard it rains now.

shift.

at 3 am last night, i couldn't sleep. i had to write this down:

when i saw you for the first time, my universe shifted. 

it took me a long time to realize that when it shifted, 

it shifted into place.

saudade.

palms.

i have to know

if 

you are who my heart says you are.

---

this time, i won't take you for granted.

i'm 

d

y

i

n

g

to show you

that i deserve another chance.

i had a dream you two were smiling.

i hope that's what you're doing right now.

i still don't know why i gave you a second chance.


but i do know that you needed love.


and even after everything, you deserved it.

i've laid my love on the table

in front of you


take it.

young and beautiful.

I know you will still love me when I'm no longer young and beautiful.

---

I saw your hair line today.

And those god-awful black wheels.

I wish my heart didn't stop.

i haven't thrown in the towel.

dance, dance

smoke

laugh, touch, smile

make promises

give up on me.


(i know you will)

under covers.

damn your eyes

for taking my breath away

for making me wanna stay

for getting my hopes up high

making me fall in love again

damn your eyes.

- just a little song you showed me under the covers.

That's true love.

I only want you to be happy.

With or without me.