relentless.

Today I was told that I am relentless.
It's true, I am.
Good. Wouldn't wanna be any other way.

On a completely different note, red dinosours are way better than the others. They should just make red ones separately. I'd buy 'em. There are too many holes in the candy business.ugh.

I can't wait to pack for LA tomorrow. Because then thursday afternoon, I. am. outta. here!
SEE YUH. :)

innocence.

Remember innocence? Remember hop scotch and jump rope? Popsicles? Monkey bars? Remember when friends lasted forever? Remember happily ever after?
Remember?
It's hard to remember when everything becomes clouded with growth.
Growing up.
Growing up, finding your "way" through life. Gathering heartbreak and experience, neither of which we need, if we could just stay in innocence. In ignorance. In bliss.

tubing.

can you take me tubing? thats all i care about.
kthanksbye.

rage.

I. hate. you.
I hope it kills you to see me.
I hope you sweat with rage until you shrivel up.

I think I'll listen to rage against the machine for the rest of the day.

I WANT TO GO BACK TO SASKATOON. and don't you dare follow me.

postsecrets.

I love post secrets. Everyone should know what they're about.

true.

And yet, to say the truth,
reason and love keep little company together nowadays.

William Shakespeare
A Midsummer Night's Dream
Act III, Sciene i

giving in.

I promised myself I wouldn't cry today. I even put on my good mascara. But when that tear finally reached my lips, what should have been bitter was sweet.
Sweet surrender.
My heart is broken. And I won't hide it behind my good mascara anymore.

look.

when you looked at me, i made a weird squishy face that probably looked like i was trying not to laugh/smelled something funny. what i really meant to say was "hi."

nightmare.

I had a horrible dream about you last night. I woke up and couldn't even move for over an hour. Why can't I just forget about you? That's all I want to do. I just want to move on.
I hope it kills you to see me every day.
And that ring hurts my left had. It's too heavy. If it hurts my right hand too, I'll just throw it in the garbage.kind of like what you did to me.

garden party.

Friends are relatives you make for yourself.
-Eustache Deschamps

Thank you so much for the amazing party. forever grateful.

birthday love.

Can't wait for my garden party tonight. with all my besties. Thank you court, luh u forever. pics later :)

falling.

When you fall in love and eventually realize you are in love, isn't the best part the falling? Wouldn't the best kind of love be continuous falling?
Every day, just falling deeper and deeper in love.
No end.
No "in love."
Just falling.
forever.

fuzz heads.

When I came home last night, these little guys were on my lawn, trying to get to the water.
So me and my brother followed them and made sure they got safely across street and into the water.
LIKE AH cutest things I've ever seen! one of the babies couldn't even jump on to the sidewalk and he struggled for a minute! UHN. I died. Then he finally made it, and frantically squeaked/waddled to his momma. Like can I keep one? A fuzz head that squeaks and waddles? That's all I really want. Srsly.

nature.

I believe in God, only I spell it Nature.
-Frank Lloyd Wright

eclipse.

"Look after my heart -- I've left it with you."

string.

I love you,
But I don't miss you.

So string your thoughts on the clothes line.
They don't belong inside.
They don't belong anywhere near me.

key.

All our lives we live in chains and never even know we hold the key.

do you really think you can just put it in a safe behind a painting, lock it up and leave?

You were always weird but I never had to hold you by the edges like I do now.

the national.

I’ve been dragging around from the end of your coat for two weeks.
You keep changing your fancy, fancy mind
every time
I decide to let go.

I listened to The National and thought of you, the entire drive home.
I know you like me back.
So open your arms
I promise I'll fit.

Summer love in Saskatoon.

Below are some pictures from my trip to Saskatoon. Some are of my little cousins, some are flowers in my Grandma's garden, and the rest are from work.
So happy I came this weekend. Exactly what I needed.
Gotta love late nights, walking home bare foot, holding your heels and your best friend's hand.
All for now.

Saskatoon.

glass.

Relationships are like glass. Sometimes it's better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together.
- Unknown.

long weekend.

My dad yelled at me for buying Hunter boots this morning. But who cares? I need them in case it rains.
So I'm taking them to saskatoon with me. Along with my camera, two dresses, a jumper and a bag of avocados that would otherwise rot if I left them at home.
I can't wait to see my friends. And my little blondie cousins.
I can't wait for picnics, and pictures of flowers, and getting wasted in high waisted shorts. I'll post pictures when I have them.
But I had this dream last night, and I can't seem to shake it off. Ugh... boys. I'm boycotting them.

All for now.

sad.angry.

I wish I didn't care.
I wish I didn't miss you.
Because everything I used to love haunts me, now.

I can't seem to move forward. I'm in a stand-still--an emotional rut.

All you did was take. So the last thing you can take are the memories.
Take the happy ones, the sad ones, I don't care. I don't need them.

I hate that you can't care for me the way I need to be, just know that I could have been everything you needed.

I hope life is good to you.
I hope your dreams come true and your spine stays strong. I hope you never lose a friend, a fight, or your mind. I hope your bed stays warm and that beer stays cold.
I hope that beer is everything you need, because, now it's all you have.

first year.

There's this lotion.
And I used it everyday in my first year of university.

It smells like you.
And sometimes, I put it on so I don't forget what you smell like.

virgin.

This is what I wake up to every morning.

And I'm a blog virgin.

I will mostly be writing about relationships, because it appears to consume my existance. But I will also post poetry, photos, etc.
What can I really say about myself? I guess if you read this often enough, you'll just get to know me. If you so choose.

Right now, I'm sitting at work, drinking an iced chai latte, yum. I think I'll go for a walk later, and maybe my dog Moses will rub his face on a dead gopher again.

All for now. Talk soon.